The Rogue Healer

The Man They Couldn't Kill. The Most Remarkable Story You've Never Heard




“True courage and adventure is found in exploring the meaning of life and discovering the reason for your existence. Even greater joy and fulfillment is found in the persistent struggle to contribute to others’ happiness.”

Daisaku Ikeda

I was thinking about courage today, when I was working with someone who is successfully beating cancer. Courage comes in different forms, of course, and there are as many forms of courage as there are people. Why ? Because each of us has our own demons. Each of us has something we struggle to face up to, each of us finds fear in things which have relevance to us, and only us. Courage only exists if we have fear. If we are not scared, we cannot be brave. So like Yin and Yang, courage and fear are both aspects of the whole, and both are needed if we are to be complete.

This particular person, the lady I was working with, has been through almost a decade of cancer. The medical treatment was tough, and she needed focus, belief and resolve to get through it, as well as an enormous amount of courage.

Each time she completed the treatment, and then found the cancer had returned, or had never even gone, she needed a fresh dose of courage to pick herself up, dust herself off, and prepare for another fight. Each time, it was harder to find that courage, but find it, she did, and each time, she came back positive, strong, and full of fight.

Now, the cancer has gone, and won’t return, and the healing I am giving, as well as being physical, is aimed at healing the deeper mental and emotional scars of a long battle with cancer.

What really stands out though, is through that whole time, through all those years where she had to face each day anew, with pain and suffering, and with often only herself to face those demons, she gave an equal amount of effort in looking after those around her.

At the same time as she was finding courage to fight her cancer, I was going through my own cancer, not the physical cancer we all know, but a malignant and destructive cancer in the shape of a psychopath, bent on destroying my life. Each day I had to find the courage to get out of bed, and continue my healing work, as well as continue the normal, boring everyday activities that we take for granted, but which can become insurmountable chores, when faced with stress and upset.

Whenever we met, and I tried to talk to her about her illness, and about her treatment, she refused to be drawn, beyond a few brief sentences. Instead, she wanted to know about me. She wanted to support me, comfort me, and help me through it. Frustrating for me, of course, as I needed to speak with her, each week, to understand her progress. When I tried to object, she would chastise me, exactly as I would chastise a cancer patient who was considering giving up.

Despite her problems, her focus was always on my pain, and the problems of those around her. Her courage helped her through her ordeal, but helped dozens of other people through their own personal hell too. She had enough courage to share it around, and I was lucky to be one of the many recipients of her bravery. It would have been all too easy to focus on herself, and to concentrate on her own problems. But in helping others, she was able to expand and strengthen her own courage, which I am sure was one of the factors in her eventual recovery from cancer.

Courage shared is never wasted. Courage shared comes back to us twice as strong. There is never a time when we can’t help another person. And in helping others, we find real meaning, and when our lives have meaning, we become indestructible.

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Distant Healing


Healing from a distance is one of the most fascinating aspects of the healers work. It’s also one of the most mysterious and intriguing. It’s so often the one people want to hear about most, but it’s probably the aspect we can talk about least. It’s most certainly poorly understood. So what is it, and how on earth does it work ?

Obviously, it is the theory that a healing response can be stimulated from a distance. What sort of distance ? In my experience, the distance is unimportant. It can be five metres, or five thousand kilometres. We tend to focus on the distance as being the important aspect of the process, when I am inclined to believe it’s probably the least important part of the encounter. We naturally fixate on figures, and the only figures available are those of the distance. If the distance had any significance, then healing over twenty kilometres would be easier than over two hundred kilometres, yet in reality, it makes no difference at all.

I must admit, it sounds far fetched. How is it possible to influence biological systems from a distance ? As the astrophysicist and scientific philosopher Sir Arthur Eddington once commented, when discussing the uncertainty principal in quantum physics in 1927:

“Something unknown is doing we don’t know what”

I’m not sure I believed in distance healing, when I first heard about it. It’s hard enough to accept hands-on healing, despite the enormous evidence for its effectiveness. But healing from a distance seems a step to far. Subsequently, and now knowing more about how the universe is constructed, and the nature of reality, I can see that there is no step too far. We are all connected. We are all part of the whole. Whether by quantum entanglement, or whether because we live in a holographic universe, we are all as one. So information exchange is instantaneous. However long the step might be, distance healing now makes perfect sense. And anyway, I know it works, because I have seen it, several thousand times.

My first experience with ‘distance’ healing was when I treated young Elliot, a three year old suffering with a very rare form of cancer. This is the little boy I discuss in the chapter on ego. Neuroblastoma is a horrible disease, with no known cure. Elliot had been diagnosed six months earlier, had undergone chemotherapy, but had subsequently relapsed, and been sent home from the hospital to die. His parents were desperate for help, if only to ease the pain of the tumours. When I drove up to see the family, I was quite frankly, unprepared for what I would find. Elliot was a very sick little boy, and the way the cancer had affected him was shocking. He hadn’t eaten for ten days, and was barely even taking water. He was extremely thin, and looked pale and drawn.

When I walked into the house, Elliot saw me as just another doctor, sent to poke and prod him. I think he was fed up with all the attention, and considering the constant pain, combined with being unable to eat, he’d just about had enough of strangers. He was only three years old, and children are apt to be a little fractious anyway, at that age. Considering everything he had suffered, it was only to be expected that he didn’t take kindly to sitting quietly, while I treated him. After some tears and upset, his mum decided to take him into the kitchen, while I sat another room, and tried to ‘send’ the healing to him. It might work, it might not. I was working on the principal that healing worked, whether I touched the patient, or whether I held my hands several centimetres from the body. Effectively, that is distant healing. Hands-off, rather than hands-on. So if it worked from a couple of centimetres, why not from several meters, through a wall ?

I focused my mind on Elliot, and imagined him in front of me. My hands started to tingle, and it almost felt as if I was actually touching Elliot. It seemed as though I was wearing hot mittens over my hands. It was quite a strange experience. There was a sense of me not quite ‘being there,’ and no longer being entirely in the room. I could hear Elliot, crying, from the kitchen, and as I switched ‘on’ the healing, he went quiet. Within seconds, he was asking his mum for a boiled egg, and from that point on, he was a completely different little boy, and his appetite, which had been non-existent for ten days, was fully returned.

At the time, I just assumed this effect was due to a ‘field’ of healing energy. It wasn’t especially impressive, because I had noticed many people in the vicinity of my work received healing, just by watching, when they weren’t the actual subject of the treatment. If the healing filled the room, why couldn’t it also fill the house ? Elliot had been some six metres from me, separated only by a brick wall, which seemed to be close enough to benefit. There was no placebo effect, as Elliot was only three years old, and was thoroughly fed up with any form of treatment or any medical people. He had no expectation, and no belief in my ability. I was just another doctor, and doctors had only ever given him more pain. His chemotherapy had made him terribly ill, and it was with sickness, not health, that he associated doctors. If the sudden reappearance of his appetite, after ten days, was a coincidence, then it was extremely lucky, coming at the precise moment I activated the healing switch. From that point on, he was also almost entirely free of pain, and needed minimal pain killers for the rest of his life. The effect was breathtaking.

Was that distant healing ? Or just a powerful healing field ? I don’t know for sure, but it was the start of my realisation that I didn’t need to be present for healing to be effective. If we think back to the chapter on healing energy, I think its very clear that space and time, being four dimensional, fully supports the notion of instantaneous information transfer, using energy, over enormous distances. In a four dimensional, holographic universe, there is no distance. In that case, healing from six metres, or sixty-million metres makes no difference. It happens.

Extract from Strong Medicine – The Handbook of Healing

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Intention and Intent – The Healers Mind


Intention and intent are the keys to all healing. No matter how many times I say it, I still won’t be able to emphasise it enough. If you can get the intent right, everything else will follow. If the intent is wrong, you’ll only ever be an average healer. Intention will transform your work, and transform your life. It is your route into another world.

Energy will always follow intention. In the world of Chinese energy arts, the link between intention and energy has been a given for over four thousand years. Qigong relies on the exercising of intention to direct internal energy around the body. Taiji, Bagua and Xing Yi are all based on the mind focusing energy, and leading it to where the practitioner needs it. Indeed, Xing Yi, an art I have studied through its energy aspects, translates as ‘Form-Intention Boxing’. At a high level, movement stops being conscious, directed by the brain and muscles, and becomes energetic, and instantaneous. Energy and intention are yin and yang, two parts of one whole. Master one, and you must master the other. You learn everything, or you’ll learn nothing. Intention is everything.

In his superb book, The Way of Qigong, Kenneth Cohen, a renowned Qigong master, discusses Yi Nian Zhi Liao, which translates as ‘Mind-Intent Healing’. In this process, the Qigong practitioner thinks of healing the patient, and the patient improves. It’s instantaneous, and does not depend on the proximity of the patient to the healer. Just the thought, or the intention, of the healer, is enough to produce a healing response. This is exactly the same process as I use to heal people from a distance, whether it’s a mile, or ten thousand miles, the intention is the same, and the result is the same. Cohen suggests that this process does not involve energy transfer, as it happens too quickly. He quotes the work of Dr Larry Dossey, who suggests we consider “the possibility of another, immeasurable correlate that does not behave like ‘energy’: consciousness itself”. I beg to differ, as we know energy exists purely as dynamic bundles of information, patterns endlessly repeating themselves, pure potential, and as such, no energy needs to be transferred. Information exchange is instant, as consciousness itself is energy, simultaneously a wave and a particle.  So I believe he is right to suggest consciousness is involved, but wrong to make a distinction between consciousness, energy and energy exchange. All are one.

“You are what your deepest desire is. 

As your desire is, so is your intention. 

As your intention is, so is your will. 

As your will is, so is your deed. 

As your deed is, so is your destiny.”

Principal Upanishads


So before we go any further, I think its appropriate to look closely at intent, and intention, and define exactly what we are talking about. As in my book Rogue Healer, I make no apologies in borrowing a definition from brilliant American healer and Qigong master, Michael Lomax.

INTENT: Non-linear, quantum-level event with no limitations. The mind is not involved. Requires energy to have manifestation. Instantaneous. High Level Qi projection with manifested healing is an example. 

INTENTION: Initiated by and monitored by mind. Linear, time involved with a finite limitation. Requires concentration to have manifestation. Visualisation is an example.

Lomax, Michael. A Light Warrior’s Guide to High Level Energy Healing (Medical Qigong and a Shaman’s Healing Vision)

So in intent and intention, we have two very similar words, with very similar meanings, yet apparently springing from different sources. Intention is quite a buzz word at the moment, but in many ways it’s the least powerful and easiest to understand of the two. It’s also the one you’ll have most connection with, on a daily basis. Start with intention and it will generate intent. But what does it mean ?

Intention comes from the mind, and as such, it is a transitory state, lasting for as long as the mind is able to focus on a specific task or goal. When you start a healing session, your intention should be clear. I am sure that’s very obvious. There is nothing too clever about forming a healing intention. But it needs to make sense to you, and reflect your understanding and eventual goal. Mine would probably be along the lines of;

 I intend to heal, to the very best of my ability, for the very highest and greatest good of the patient, without prejudice, ego or agenda, to bring about wholeness and integrity. 

Something of a mouthful, perhaps, but I think it generally sums up my intention, either spoken or unspoken, when I am going about my healing work. I don’t think about it every time I perform a healing session. I may not even think about it from one day to the next. I don’t need to. It’s clearly formed and it is focused. I know what I am doing, and I know what I want to happen. To make intention work for us, and not against us, it always requires focus. It insists we know what we are doing, and needs us to be clear about our goals and our methods of attaining those goals.

Every moment is a moment of intention. It must be, as our minds are constantly working, creating the world around us. Therefore every moment is a moment of creation too, since our intention is what forms the now. For most of us, this is an unconscious act, as we have lost the realisation that we can control and focus our intention, to create the world we want. You create your world, every second of every day. I create mine in the same way. Together, we create everything we see. It conforms to what we expect and what we desire. We get exactly what we create. Life is completely intentional.

Extract from Strong Medicine – The Handbook of Healing 


Cancer – Hope and Empowerment


Lets face it. Cancer is disempowering. It involves a total loss of control. Previously, the cancer patient made decisions every day. These decisions determined how he or she lived their life. Decisions were made consciously and subconsciously, every moment. Every day, the patient was master of his or her destiny. Having control of our lives is the main constituent of what we call freedom. And having that freedom is what allows us to make choices, and lead a fulfilling life. For the cancer patient, the biggest shock is the loss of that freedom. The loss of control. The impact is massive and cannot be underestimated.

The first loss of control comes when the cells become chaotic and disturbed. Cells which have previously contributed to health and vitality now conspire to bring illness and disease. Can you imagine how that feels? To know your body, which has served you well for so long, is now conspiring to kill you? Regardless of whether or not it’s acknowledged, this knowledge has a profound effect on the psyche of the patient.

The second loss of control comes after diagnosis. Suddenly the patient’s life is no longer their own. From leading a normal life, they are suddenly transported into an out-of-control world, full of hospitals, doctors, travel and appointments. Everyday seems to be filled with activities related to the cancer. Normal life stops completely. The doctors take over, offering treatments which seem strange and frightening. Many new cancer patients are too scared to ask questions, and certainly too scared to try expressing opinions or ask about alternatives. They often feel pressured and confused. Life becomes chaotic.

The third loss of control comes personally. Relaxation becomes difficult. The mind of the patient is unable to stop thinking about the cancer. Every new ache and pain is immediately blamed on the cancer. Suddenly, life is changed forever. Every event is interpreted in relation to cancer. There is no life without cancer. The old life is gone. Friends don’t know how to react, and some will avoid the new cancer patient completely, not knowing what to say or do. Family members will offer well meaning advice, but conflicts often emerge as differences in opinion become apparent. The new patient may want to use conventional treatments, against the advice of friends or family. I have seen this many times. Or they may want to try complementary or alternative approaches. Again, this can cause trouble. Lack of support and doubt about choices are weakening and disempowering. Loss of control everywhere. Cancer changes everything.

Time and again, I see those people who begin the process of empowerment are those who make the recovery from cancer. The patient needs to regain some control of their life. They need to start making decisions and they need to stop the chaos engulfing their world.  These decisions don’t necessarily need to be major, but they do need to be significant in the eyes of the patient. They need to mean something. They may only be symbolic, but if the patient feels he or she has stopped the ‘crazy train’ and is starting to make choices again, it has a vast and profound effect on their wellbeing. Emotionally and psychologically they will feel boosted and empowered, and the deep resources available to them, such as a strengthened immune system, will kick into action. Empowerment brings belief and belief breeds hope. Hope can be infectious, and it can affect everyone around the patient. This is, in my humble opinion, the first step in successfully beating cancer.

The second step, again in conjunction with the energetic, ‘hands on’ healing process, is to start the patient projecting themselves into the future. This is the next development of the empowerment of the patient. So often, that process stops at the moment of diagnosis. The patient has no hope, so they stop seeing themselves in the future. They no longer plan holidays, they no longer think about Christmas or birthdays. They suddenly live in the moment, from one hospital appointment to the next. There is no hope and there is no future. The future is dead.  Everything stops.

I work hard to change that mindset. If the patient no longer sees himself in the future, how on earth does he expect to get there? He must exist in the future, in his own mind. This technique is part of the empowerment process, mentioned above. The patient must take control. He must start to own the future. Make the future his. This may sound strange, but so often I have seen people transformed by this simple approach.

“Mind is nothing but the accumulated past, the memory. Heart is the future; heart is always the hope, hope is always somewhere in the future. Head thinks about the past; heart dreams about the future. The future is yet to come. The future is yet to be. The future has yet a possibility – it will come, it is already coming. Every moment the future is becoming the present, and the present is becoming the past. The future is like a seed”   

Osho. Courage. The Joy of Living Dangerously

I force the patient to see the future. I force the patient to project forwards. The future is theirs to be made. Yes, we know the diagnosis, yes we know the prognosis and we know the risks. But these simple techniques make such a difference. If you have ever seen a beaten person, shocked and scared, already dead in all but body, and within weeks or even days they are stronger than they have ever been, and ready to fight for their future, you’ll know, like me, that there is no such thing as false hope. Only hope. If the future is like a seed, then we need to nourish that seed, and allow it to grow. But first we must plant it. Create a future. If the seed dies, and the future dies, the end is inevitable.

Yes, I do give hope. I give hope because there is always hope. I love this process. Its profound in its simplicity. If hope gives belief, and belief gives empowerment, and that empowerment takes someone into the future, where they can beat their illness and confound their doctors, then hope is the secret weapon we all need.

Extract from Rogue Healer – The Autobiography

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The Genius and Compassion of Viktor Frankl


I was thinking about the amazing Viktor Frankl, and his incomparable book, Mans Search for Meaning. Frankl was an Austrian-born neurologist and psychiatrist, living in Vienna at the time of the Nazi takeover. Initially he was able to continue his work, but in 1944 he was sent, along with his family, to a concentration camp. Tragically, his wife, both parents and his brother were not to survive their incarceration. During his time there, as he fought for survival, he developed his theory on logotherapy and on his release, wrote his book, which has now been published into dozens of languages and has sold millions of copies. 

Frankl believed that, no matter how awful, how terrifying, how dehumanising, how painful and how tragic life may be, life continues to have meaning, so within that, suffering has meaning too. If we can find that meaning, we can come through anything. 

“If there is meaning in life at all, then there must be meaning in suffering.” 

“The attempt to develop a sense of humor and to see things in a humorous light is some kind of a trick learned while mastering the art of living” 

“Those who have a ‘why’ to live, can bear with almost any ‘how’.” 

“We who lived in concentration camps can remember the men who walked through the huts comforting others, giving away their last piece of bread. They may have been few in number, but they offer sufficient proof that everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms — to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one’s own way” 

During my ‘bad times’, I had the choice to react in any one of a million ways. The most obvious response was anger, fear or despair. But I knew that if I chose that route, I would become like my stalker, consumed with hate, venom, and ultmately fear and hopelessness. As long as I stayed true to myself and my ideals, I had won, even if ultimately I was to die. No matter what happened, as long as I kept smiling and held onto my compassion, I would be a winner to the end. 

Mans Search for Meaning is a book I recommend to everyone, as within its pages, there is true wisdom from which we can all learn, and gain meaning. We all have hard times in our lives, and often we can lose our faith in life, in ourselves and in our view of the world. At those times, its worth reaching for Frankl, and remembering his words;

“Between stimulus and response, there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.” 

There is always meaning to life. There is always meaning in our lives. That can never be taken away. We always have a choice. We can always smile, no matter how bad things become. We have the choice. 

We can all be Viktor Frankl.




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One heart at a time………

Balloon Girl - Banksy

Balloon Girl – Banksy


So, I’ve just seen little Stella. Three months old, and a wonderful little girl. She was born with a severe gastric reflux and a hole in her heart. Her mother brought her to me, hoping for any improvement at all. The reflux meant she was constantly sick, and she burped continuously, 24/7.

After the first healing session, the burping stopped, immediately. She didn’t burp again for ten days, then it returned, but in a milder version, along with just a little sickness, which had also stopped immediately after the session. Another healing session, two weeks after the first, and the burping stopped completely. The sickness too. The reflux seems to have mysteriously vanished. In between her second and third treatments, a scheduled scan has revealed the hole in the heart is all but gone. Quite a surprise to the doctors.

So two treatments seems to have healed both the reflux and the heart problem. The third one has hopefully finished the job. The response was immediate and instantaneous. Simple and effective.

I wonder what went through Stella’s mind, at three months, as she watched me healing her ? What was she thinking ? She seemed to enjoy it, staring at me, and smiling, sitting in her mothers arms. What will she know of it later ?

When she is older, what she she be told ? Will she know she received healing ? Will it change her, in deeper ways ? Will she have a different view of the world, having had healing at such a formative time ?

I often wonder how their little lives turn out, as I send them on their path. In my own small way, I have made a difference. It may only be slight, but when I am gone, some goodness will remain, and live on in others. Surely thats all any of us can hope for ? A smile that makes someone’s day ? A kind deed ? A gentle word ? Anything we can do to change the world, no matter how small, makes a difference and is never wasted.

The revolution, when it happens, will take place one heart at a time. One kind word at a time.